I ain't going away !

Getting involved in myriads of things is just a way,
To keep the old memories at the bay...
You might believe that I am shying away,
Dodging the questions that come in my tray
But you have to trust that I wont betray, 
Coz life aint always black and white, there wud be some gray !!

All I wanted for myself was a bit of time
And I believe it is nowhere a crime
You refused to listen when it was the prime
And walked away without a reason or rhyme...

Think whatever you want but I can only implore
Which of course you have all the rights to ignore
You want a step, I am ready to walk four
Coz you are someone I would always adore !!

Yet another day...

One more day comes to an end. While the whole world was busy celebrating Christmas in the best possible way they could, I was being selfish waiting for Santa like crazy in the hope of getting a gift, but wait, it was not something material that I wanted, it was happiness, it was hope, I wanted life to be fair to me, but chuck it, was never gonna happen coz I know I had not put in enough efforts in my life to secure what I wanted. Seems no one looks at the efforts, including God himself and everyone seems to be looking at what you achieve at the end of the day and here I stand, like a wind battered traveller trapped in a fierce wind storm with both of my arms extending towards the sky asking for respite, I have had enough. Enough of this shit, people say that I crib and should be satisfied by what I am getting, but let me tell them, you are in a goddamn better position and you very well know that, still you are trying to extract every extra bit in your life and advising me to keep quiet and be satisfied, shut up you damn hypocrites. They tell me, be a sport dude and I followed their advise, now I have become a football and no one spares any chance to kick me in the behind...

Without You

Last night I was lost in a reverie so deep,

Dint even have time for a wink o sleep...

As the twinkling stars made way for the sun

And a new day for the world had begun...

Still I lay looking up at the sky

Unable to decide to laugh or to cry...

Like a traveler wind battered

Betrayed by life, my dreams lay shattered

Until yesterday you were there indeed

Standing by my side whether or not in need

Ur bosom was where I could hide my face

Whether be it sorrow or disgrace

My words failed me I could not speak

Tears came rolling down my cheek

No one is around, tis a deserted look

An eerie silence now rests in every nook

And yet again I cried myself to sleep

Something in abyss of my heart forced me to weep

I ask my inner self - is it a pain or is it a lost touch

What is it that anguishes me so much...?

Yet again I dint get any answer

As if the world wanted me to suffer

Losing all hopes losing whatever I could believe

The grief is something I could not deceive…

I thought this agony would be transient

And life will make a transition from past to present

Tried to be bold tried to be brave

But I am sure it will follow me to the grave…